Being on the receiving end of love most of my life, I rarely thought about the sacrifices my parents and loved ones made for me. I know that God loves me through my family and friends, and I do my best to love them back in return. I have participated in some charity work, and I do have my own share of hardship and sacrifice. Yet despite this, I still feel a certain sense of doubt about God’s love for me. He is after all, faceless, silent, and a mystery.
Then, on the eve of Ash Wednesday I felt that God had given me a most wondrous gift. I was praying the rosary for my loved ones and in particular, for a beloved friend.
Then I felt like God asked me: “Do you really love that person? How much?”
Then in my heart, I felt all the love I had for my loved ones surge within me.
Gently, I felt Jesus telling me: “Don’t you know that I love you with that kind of love but only greater, purer, and deeper than you can ever imagine?”
Heaven is real
It was as if God at that exact moment lifted the heavenly veil that covers His face, giving me a taste of His love for me; it was so overwhelming I cried.
For the longest time, I had been praying, “Lord, show me Your face”. And in this faceless encounter of Divine love and grace, I have indeed seen His face. Thinking about it, still pierces my heart with its sweetness.
Words are not enough to describe how I felt, but the certitude that I am deeply loved by God is enough to last my lifetime and make me long for heaven even more. In heaven, there is a complete unveiling and revelation of God’s love.
In heaven, we know each other with love and intimacy, the way God does.
I realized that the best way for me to fully fathom the depth of God’s love for me is when instead of focusing on receiving love, I give love to others. Even if other people won’t love me the way I want to be loved, I choose to love them without demanding anything in return. Jesus made me realize that my own meager, imperfect human love for others can never measure up to His own perfect Divine love for me.
The more I love others, the more deeply I realize how loved I am. I find comfort in the fact that no matter how much love I give, this love can never, ever exceed God’s love for me. This cup of love will always overflow, and this is where I will always drink from.
So Lord, I am all Yours. This heart is Yours. Let my cup overflow.
“Nothing can separate us from Our Father’s love” – Romans 8:39